So this morning I reread Nine and Sixty Ways by goseaward in prep for my Terminus panel next week and oh my God.

Have you ever had one of those moments when all the reasons why you love your OTP so damn much just slam smack into you and you have this really enormous emotional wave of woobieness for them crash over you to the point where you get a little leaky because you really, really adore them?

(Oh, God, that has got to sound so crazy to nonfannish ears.)

Anyway. Yeah. Had a moment like that rereading Goosey's fic. It just reminded me of how flaily I was after Half-Blood Prince came out and how much I love Snape and Draco together.

Don't get me wrong. I love Snarry. I love Harry/Draco. Let's face it, I love pretty much any combination of Snape/Draco/Harry you can think of. But the fact of the matter for me is that Snape/Draco is deep under my skin now, whether from writing them for so long in my fic or RPing them for years in Dungeons, and they'll always be my OTP of OTPs.

I love the way they fit. I love the parallels between their lives and the wild dissimilarities. I love their Slytheriness. I love the subtle power play between the two of them that exists under the surface. I love the improper properness of their courtship. I love Snape's protectiveness towards Draco and Draco's respect towards his Head of House (grudgingly bitter though it may be at times). I love how Snape can lose himself in the self-centered whirlwind that is Draco Malfoy and how Draco can find himself in the snarky solidness that is Severus Snape. I love that Snape can make Draco grow up some. I love that Draco can turn Snape's world upside down. I love that Snape can pretend not to want Draco and that Draco can wake up one morning and decide to seduce him. I love how their interaction with Lucius and/or Narcissa affects their interaction with each other. I love how Draco just accepts being rich as his due and how Snape has a hard time getting past his poverty. I love that there's a strange teacher-student dynamic that underlies everything, making it tense and angsty at times and oh so very questionable. I love their complexities. I love their fucked-up-ness. I just love them, fictional characters or no.

And okay, I'm seriously about to get all sniffly at work, dammit. But I really do adore these two so much and I'm always going to, canon be damned. (I still maintain that Asteria-bloody-Greengrass is actually Severus Snape in drag, dammit, and Scorpius Malfoy is the product of mpreg, AND I DO NOT CARE WHAT JKR SAYS. So there. Hmph.)

The thing I love about fandom is this is about the only place I can say all of the above without getting those oh my God, you've lost your mind, you realize they're not real, right? looks.

Or at least not many. :)

And now I'm going to pull myself together and go read some, oh, I don't know, Snape/Black for my Terminus presentation. That will eliminate ALL my humiliating woobieness right there, oh yes, it will.

*slinks away*

*is not thinking about writing Snape/Draco fic instead of finishing my Terminus presentation, oh no, not at all*